Inside Anees' Head

Why is it not my fault? If I am just that lousy a person, is it ever my fault? The blame is being thrown around at environmental factors like having little money, stupid parents, or being a guy and those are apart from simply being mental. Can't it just be my fault?

It won't happen. The probabilty does exist but it's just too slim. I try to convince myself. But a version of it will happen. And every version will break my heart.